I was a senior in high school when I found out I was pregnant.
I chose abortion and will not lie that I held some sadness about it and fantasized about the perfect family I could have had. But now that I am older and look back on that awful relationship I held onto for so long I am very glad for what I did. The fact that I fantasized about the "family" I could have had just goes to show how immature I was. I needed a reality check.
If I had not chosen abortion I would not have graduated high school, attended college, or found myself the good job that I have now. I would have put my child in the middle of a teenage love war with an unstable drunken father, years of court battles, and a mother who could not provide enough. And that doesn't count the abusive and broken home I came from that my child would have had to live in since I wouldn't have been able to afford my own home. When I think about it now it makes me incredibly sad that I almost subjected another human to that shitty life I was living. And sure a lot of people say I could have chosen adoption, but not all adoptive parents are wonderful, and there are many more deserving kids who are already born and living terrible. It is not fair of me to add to that or take away from those kids.
By choosing abortion I was able to get my life on track and pass the teen-drama before passing it onto my children. At 23 years old I am still not ready for kids but I am excited that one day it will be my choice and I will be ready to parent them the way they deserve.